I started to come to this church when I was 15. This was due to an invitation from my friend Naivasha who asked me to help her out on the choir. Attending that particular service really helped me to know about our Lord Jesus Christ and encouraged me to want to know more. I told the rest of my family about Ilford High Road church and that we should all attend. Before coming to Ilford High Road I attended a Church of England church that I didn't really enjoy, of course they were praising the Lord, but for some reason I didn't engage with it.
I attended YPF from 16 up until 18, when I decided to transfer to the main church. It was at this point that I really understood Christ and all that God had done for not only me, but for all His children. It was here that I understood how strong, forgiving, gracious and powerful God is but I still didn't give my life to Christ. I knew that coming to church was a good thing to do, or something that you had to do. I understood Jesus was the only God that was to be in my life, but I still didn't go forth and give my life to the Lord.
Before I gave my life to Christ, I used to worry a lot, was angry, and didn't really take responsibility for my actions. Instead. made excuses for them so it could be easier on my conscience in an attempt to reduce my worrying. At one point in my life my prayers were quite routine. For example, I would pray before dinner and bed and I usually said the same things. Again I felt that this was the right thing to do, but it didn't have my full passion behind it.
I can say at that point in my life I knew God was there but I didn't really know Him. I knew how powerful He was, but didn't realise how much He had done for me. I knew how forgiving He was but still I was too ignorant to really appreciate all that our gracious God had done for me. I was not in a relationship with God but was religious.
In September, Pastor Maria was preaching and she was talking about hell and about people she knew who had been given the opportunity, through their sleep to see hell with our Lord, came back to earth and still refused to give their life. She went on to preach about a young person who died in their sleep, with no warning. She carried on to make the point that death is unpredictable and can strike at any time so you can't be wasting time saying, yeah I'm going to pray later ... or give my life in 3 years or even five years, because that time may not come.
It was at the end of that service she asked people to come to the front and give their life. I was very hesitant but was convicted to go forward. I went to the front to seek my lord and to ask him to reign over my life. Tears ran down my face, but these were not tears of sadness, but tears of happiness and triumph, as I now acknowledged that God had come into my life. I prayed with both Jasmine and Sue and they both graciously helped me to give my life properly.
After that, I started to attending Bible studies with Jasmine and Hughes. This was something I said I would do before I gave my life, but in turn I didn't go and made many excuses, truthful ones, but thinking about it, if I really wanted to go, I suppose I could have. Attending their Bible studies really broke Christianity down for me and what it means to be a Christian. It gave me a clearer picture of my faith, but I'm aware that I'm still learning.
The difference God has made in my life is one that is so special. I know that God is helping me to be a better person. I am trusting more in the lord and worrying less. I have become more passionate about God and I want to learn more. However at times I find it to be hard, but I just ask the lord to give me strength and to continue to bless me and encourage me to never stray.
I am getting baptised because it says in John 15:14, that by being baptised we obey God's commands and we become friends of God. I want to become a better friend of God, I want to wash away my sins and my old life and walk afresh and anew with the Lord. I want to keep trusting in Him in order to live my new life in Christ.
I have learnt that you mustn't make excuses to give your life to Christ and be baptised when the opportunity arises. You cannot assume that you will have the opportunity on your death bed.
Mark 8:3 says that God will be ashamed of those who are ashamed of being a Christian when He returns. As for me, I am determined to walk with the Lord for eternity.